Covid and this global pandemic has put the screws to many things and tested the resolve of many people. Things never in question before are suddenly in question. All the plans of hope we had at the start of this year have resigned to be put on hold. Feels like people are just holding on. Waiting for it to end. Will it end?

The year most assuredly will, but Covid? This incessant need to work and live within this bubble of caution…I don’t know. I know, if it was up to me, I’d snap my fingers and put an end to it tomorrow. Everyone recognizes and acknowledges that we have a new virus; we take normal reasonable precautions of social distancing, washing hands and the like, but NOTHING is shut down. Everything stays and remains in full operation.

But it’s not up to me. No way to rationally work thru it from this end. We’re at the mercy of the ones pulling the strings. The ones in the position to protect us.

I’ve been issued many a task that required hard work, long hours, unruly clients, extreme circumstances, and I’ve never shy’ed away from beating towards the goal until its been achieved. But this is different. These are pieces being played that are beyond my paygrade. Beyond my scope of reach. It’s become…mentally and emotionally taxing.

And I can hear it…the question. The only question that ever really matters whenever attempting to do whatever it is you’re ever looking to do: What. Do. You. Really. Want? 

‘Cause if you can determine that then the only thing that comes next is, what are you willing to do for it? 

And from there it goes; the thought process showing the steps to completion. Determining what you want, and then doing what you need to do to obtain it. Seems so simple.

And yet it isn’t.

You have to stay focused. Be tenacious. Dare I say, obsessive about it. Every day. Gotta be the first thing on your mind in the morning, and the last thing you think about at night. No one can push you harder on it than how you can push yourself. It’s the eat, sleep, dreaming of it kind of thing that consumes your thoughts…

Or it isn’t.

Something like covid can’t take it. A global pandemic doesn’t stop you or give you pause. The drive that’s deep inside, that small voice that whispers your hearts desire…just gets louder.

Or it doesn’t.

The challenges of it, weeds out the fake wants. It weeds out the people who have come before you to obtain the prize. So when you get that feeling inside to quit, it’s at that moment, when you really got to dig deep and dig your heels in; or you’ll quit.

Nothing wrong with quitting. If that’s what you want? But whatever it is you’re looking for, I guarantee it doesn’t come from being idle. Even peace comes with a price.

So, you do the work, you do the time…”part of the ship, part of the crew”.

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